18 Minutes

I recently discovered two things:

1. I am struggling a little with depression.
2. I want to change how I work with the affirmation cards deck, because I don’t feel engaged with them.

When I’m struggling with anxiety, it feels obvious because it makes my heart race, my stomach twist and breathing difficult.

Depression is a more subtle beast. I don’t always notice it until there are multiple symptoms and it almost feels like a sneak attack.

I’ve been struggling with depression the past few weeks.

I must remember healing is not linear.

I also need to remember I’m dealing with hormones and am in the middle of a medication change. TMS therapy hasn’t instantly stopped working.

Most importantly, I must remember that I still need to work on healing.

In a previous post with Aurora, I mentioned that Aurora has only 18 minutes of screen time.

18 Minutes with Sleeping Beauty

In that time – she spends her time frolicking in the forest with her animal friends. She falls in love and learns she’s a princess. She discovers she can’t marry the man she just met while frolicking in the forest. Finally, she pricks her finger on the spindle of a spinning wheel.

A lot can happen in 18 minutes.

In the deck of affirmation cards, Aurora has 2 affirmations.

I am positive.

I am enough.  

Instead of simply stating the affirmations in the cards, I want to be more engaged with them.

In honor of Aurora’s 18 minutes, I will spend the same amount of time each day this week. I will dedicate this time to working on the above affirmations.

And maybe at the end I might just feel a little more myself again.