I am a procrastinator. It’s something I’ve tried to change over the years, but I think it’s just part of my makeup. So, it shouldn’t surprise you when I tell you that most of my goals haven’t been completed yet.
I’m pretty sure this only disappoints me, but as I reminded myself why I have photoshoots every month, I think I also need a reminder of why I have goals.
Reason No. 1: To keep busy.
It’s hard to think too much if you have a task (unless the task is to think, but that’s besides the point). If I’m working on something my mind isn’t as prone to wander on depressive thoughts.
Reason No. 2: To learn and do new things.
It’s always good to do this whether you’re depressed or not, but depression makes it harder to do anything. I think having new things to do helps me fight that impulse.
Reason No. 3: To remind myself that I can do and learn and grow despite my illness.
I find it easy to get caught up on the things I don’t do or should do, etc. By having goals (and working on/completing them) I can turn that negative thinking around and say, “But look! I’ve done this and that!”
Moana is a great model for the concept of “goals” because she’s always busy and she’s also always striving towards something. Whether it’s returning the heart to Te Fiti, leading her people or learning how to sail, she has something to do and to look forward to.
Do I regret figuring this out as I write instead of in the beginning of the month? Yes. But that doesn’t mean the month has been wasted or anything. And goals can always be changed and adapted.
Besides I have until midnight to at least make my smoothie.